(Based on client work and life itself). “A pause or the inner world is closed for restoration”

The closed inner world is being repaired for the widow longer

Reconstruction itself is a necessary procedure. This proves the every second movement around us. And none of us can stop this process.

Various necessary processes also take place within us, due to which changes and beauty of the inner world. It changes so fast that we don't even have time to fix this reconstruction. Few in the world of scientists are striving to comprehend these amazing changes.

The beauty of the inner world does not age

Unfortunately, people who do not have access to their innermost are more and more common. Some are born incapable of internal reconstruction, others have been made so by people, and still others refuse it because of their own laziness.

There are also those who neglect to work on themselves, because they are carried away by working on others. But it encourages another:

If you want to change the world, be the change

M. Gandhi

Leaving your own inner world unattended is very dangerous. He is like a small child, ready to swallow everything that gets into his mouth. It turns out that closing your inner world is the same as closing a child's mouth.

Closed secretive person keeps tensely. He is suspicious and gloomy. Astute people who deal with such a person guess about the "skeleton" hidden in his closet.

And it is not easy to help in this matter.

Himself, preparing for medicine, and therefore for vision from the inside,

Talk about the core, don't talk about the husk.

Talk to me, daughter, about the darkness of the soul - a bottomless warehouse,

In which everyone is a loner ... about which they do not talk to anyone.

I would like to live in a society of open and friendly people who do not hide their love and joy. And you?

I recall a case when a man, guided by, dissuaded his friend from a good laugh. As an argument, the ability of the devil to turn loud laughter into loud crying was cited 🙄

In this scenario, the movement towards a new order slows down by half.

The real beauty of the inner world is not hidden

This is absolutely accurate, to be honest. It can be covered in one situation, but in another - any cover becomes transparent.

The internal state is reflected by the words of a person, his feelings, his facial expressions and gestures. There are many more indicators of a rich inner world and no less of a poor one.

You can throw stones or flowers at a person. This will determine the contents of your inner world

But even being completely alone on a desert island, we are not able to hide our secret and innermost.

Everything is naked and open before the eyes of the one to whom we will give an account

Apostle Paul

In the meantime, we have to be accountable to the people.

There are people who are able to ask the right question and they have our inner world. And it's not about divine inspiration. It's just that these people are very good listeners, they like to notice important details and tie them together.

More importantly, they are willing to use it for our well-being. Wise people with a rich inner world help us:

• to become inwardly what one should be, even when outwardly it is impossible to become what one wants

So, Dear friends, do not close your inner world. It is pointless. Seeing the need for reconstruction, act, because the beauty of the inner world

- reflects your past
— outlines your present
— defines your future

You can try to hide yours when you see a serious threat. But that's a completely different story...

A reasonable person adapts to the world around him,

but the foolish persists in his efforts

adapt the world around you.

Therefore, all progress depends

from foolish people.

(Bernard Show)

Inner peace and the law of life

Five rules for the perfection of the inner world

1. Is yours inner world- not passable. Take care of it and do not open it wide open in front of every passerby you meet.
2.Is yours inner world- this universe is personal, intimate and secret, it is only for the elite.
3. Inner world this is a huge planet of happiness. She is yours. People are able to see the magnificence of the world, experience happiness and love, miraculous divine miracles, the magic of the world, only because these virtuous seeds have already sprouted on their inner, spiritual planets, which means that the inner world has already received these spiritual seeds.
4. - the echo of our soul, it is like a reflection in water, the calmer it is, the clearer we see our reflection.
5. Ask God skill - forget the bad. It is very fruitful and useful for the inner world of people. If we don’t get stuck in our thoughts on problems and troubles, live offended, hide anger in ourselves, then we won’t stain our inner world, our beautiful planet where your soul lives, this will provide a state of happiness, and happiness will give everything you want. God also loves those who ask for sight that sees the best in people, ears that hear only the most harmonious sounds, loving heart who forgives evil. Ask God for this, then the Creator Himself will look into your inner world and remain to live on your spiritual planet.

The inner world of man and its influence

Pay attention to the fact that our outer and inner worlds are tightly connected with each other. Changes in one of them change the other. It is often enough to internally change our opinion about a subject or people in order to achieve success in reality. This is not the first mystery of people.
For example, many want to learn the secrets of seduction in order to use skills and this knowledge in love affairs. It is no secret that a large number of people in the amorous business absolutely do not succeed, but there are others who look worse on the face and think more simply, but achieve good luck in the craft of the heart. It happens that a shabby little man will snatch off such a beauty that the people cannot understand what she found in him. Or there is a woman, well, quite unprepossessing: she limps, she does not pronounce some letters, but everything is in perfect order with her affairs of the heart. Have you noticed this? There are two simple secrets here. Can't be reached true love, if you don’t love yourself, confuse love with the desire for sexual intimacy, feel feelings of danger for love, suspect betrayal, etc. This is the first secret. The second, oddly enough, is that the person himself must allow himself to love this person and the inner world should not suffer from low self-esteem.
The cleanliness and neat arrangement of the invisible inner world is very important for solving most life tasks, because the outer world depends on it, real world. The development of the inner world is accompanied by such qualities as respect, courtesy, deference, cultural, precautionary attitude towards people.

The fact that additional development of the inner world is necessary is indicated by manifestations of envy caused by the success and well-being of others. Envy, widespread in the inner world, does not allow to receive in reality those benefits that a person envies. Envy and other negative feelings are our enemies. It is very harmful, for example, to try to get money by envying the rich or considering those who have achieved success in business or, for example, in a career, idlers. Indeed, in most cases it is quite the opposite. Labor and good intentions, even if directed only to their children and loved ones, brought a person the gifts that he possesses today. It is difficult to accumulate money for those who despise the poor and do not help people. I heard how one woman convinced her friend that the lack of sympathy for the sick takes away health. It's hard not to agree. How to do right? In my opinion, if we are looking for respect, we must respect others. If we need recognition, we must recognize the merits of others. If we need trust, we need to trust. And if we envy things, then we reduce our ability to possess such objects. We already know that not only actions and deeds change our destinies, but in most of our thoughts. Even if you do the right things, while having dark thoughts you will not get any benefit. Sincerity, kindness, love, gratitude, purity of thoughts, respect for others, the desire to live in harmony with the world are very important.

Outer world and inner world create reality

Having understood the mechanics of the interaction of the outer and inner worlds, people can learn to easily fulfill all their desires. A person arrives in two spaces: external and internal gammas. Both worlds merge in man and out of them arises the living reality of man. Reality of the present lifeworld- this is the merging of the external and internal scales of a person. The birth of a person contributes to the formation of human gammads. This is how the external gamma appears first, and then the internal gamma is formed. Thus, by adding gammads, an internal template and a real reality are formed. Based on it, people in the future learn about the world around them, draw conclusions, perform actions and actions.

This reality of the life world is personal and created on the basis of an internal template. In accordance with this template, information coming from the external environment is processed. The inner reality of different people is different and can be contradictory. The template imposes influences on mental activity and sensory perception. Based on it, people set goals, seek and find the means to achieve them. The template defines the habitual system of people's views on the perceived world, it indicates how they should treat their body, their "I", the people around them. The template forms stereotypical life beliefs, manners, ideals, ethical standards, social rules, spirituality, ways of gaining experience, and more. Summarizing the information, the template draws attention to the repetitions of situations and is fixed only on those views, representations that have a generalization in a given social environment. After some time, the template is strengthened in its structure, from this, the views of a person become enslaved, become less flexible. In this case, people tend to talk about the finally formed mature personality.
Due to the fact that the human template is always different for different people, people's actions and their judgments, their motives, thoughts also differ. The pattern is like a human palm. The length of the fingers and the capillary pattern always differ, but you will never, in a sober mind, confuse a human hand with a paw of a dog or a primate. Therefore, the structure of the people template is the same. As the palm has five fingers, so the template has four main tiers of awareness, each of them is a formed gamma with its own personal characteristics. These are the four worlds of self-consciousness. A person in his consciousness can be fixed on any of them, respectively, his worldview, actions and actions will be different.

Four worlds of self-consciousness

First tier- gamma of simple, "provincial thinking". Here, on the lawns, in the shade of the trees, most of the people settled in hammocks. Their belief systems are based only on life experience, common sense, and instincts. They believe in everything they see and in what their elders and their superiors tell them. These people do not particularly think about the meaning of life.

Second tier is occupied by the "informed" gamma. It was formed during school and student years, where the main propaganda rods and unshakable scientific laws were hammered into this gamma. Having accepted them, people themselves became tribunes, propagandists of these rods, or teachers, or scientists, technical personnel. They gained experience in precise areas: science, politics or creativity. This gamma is aimed at enlightening humanity and is able to gradually transfer its thought patterns, in the form of various ideas, to other people. Public figures, as well as writers, philosophers, and religious activists have a developed gamma of the second tier.
Third tier occupies the "thinking" range. Here are those who question the system of stereotyped perception of the world. They criticize the existing system of human views and direct the development of mankind to a humane, kind, spiritual path of development. They oppose wars, the death penalty, abortion, slavery, hard labor, the exploitation of man by man, etc. These people are able to bring property into the patterns of human views. They subject human views to deep analysis, which changes the stereotyped relationships of people.
fourth tier- this is the "gammad of demiurges" - those who are able to massively destroy old patterns of perception and create new ones, influence the laws of physics and act against them. These are Gods, miracle workers, prophets, or, for example, such a fictional character as Neo from the movie "The Matrix".

External world

The outside world is familiar to all of us. This is us, our family, friends, colleagues. It's public transport, it's roads, it's blue skies during the day and dark, dotted with hundreds of thousands of beautiful stars at night. Our external world is our affairs, our plans, tasks, our things and the whole world around us. The outside world consists of all sorts of large and small objects, there are a lot of them. The external world is subject to scientific laws that describe the physical properties of substances, ways of influencing them, etc. However, the external world is not completely cognizable, it is full of processes that are not studied and cannot be influenced by people. We need this world of ours in order to gain experience, overcome difficulties, learn to solve complex problems, grow spiritually and achieve spiritual liberation. The forms of our world are matrices of different beings, created due to their possession of a certain amount of conviction. The external world - we completely do not see and do not feel. Eyes are only devices that scan space. They transmit some of the signals from outside world into the brain. The brain decodes them, censors and broadcasts its pictures to us. The brain shows us what corresponds to the patterns of our understanding. The brain censors the signals in accordance with the instructions received from above. Having got rid of the flare, the whole external world will stop for that individual person who was able to get rid of the flare of the matrix. In this case, a person will fall into another world, which, as it were, is embedded in ours.

Since there is a personal external world for each person, there is only one judgment template for each. It has, distinguishing from the outside world of other people. This is the game of life for each person. "Personal world", it is intertwined with the worlds of other people. The outside world is growing like branches of vines, changing the fate of people, establishing billions of different connections, from which all different conditions arise. Conditions stand as barriers to the desires and aspirations of people. People are trying to change the conditions, move the vines apart, cut them down, adapt to the conditions, subordinate them and influence, influence, influence. People develop different qualities in themselves, invent machines, adapt the physical world and achieve success in influencing the conditions of the unknowable, external world. The outside world is a mortal, changeable, fussy reality, it seems useless to those who approach its knowledge because a person, having experienced all the benefits of this reality, cannot get rid of the thirst to “have” and always feels need.

Inner world

The outer world and the inner world have significant differences. Often inside a person there is a confrontation between the two worlds of the outer and inner. The outside world is limited by the body and physical capabilities. The inner world is freer in action and is forced to constantly depend on fussy moods, feelings, desires, illnesses, needs for food, water, sex. On the other hand, the inner world does not have the opportunity to independently receive experience from the carnal feelings, the physical processes that are the sources for the sense organs of the body. The inner world is closed from the outer and in different people varies greatly. It's one thing if people were born in different parts of the same country. Their inner world will be similar in many ways, despite the differences in the environment in which these people are brought up. Much is laid down by historical and cultural values. The inner world of people from an African tribe will be very different from the inner world of a resident of a metropolis. Therefore, the ways to achieve goals and their worldly success will differ for them. In magic, the inner world is often delimited by five such basic principles as spirit, mind, will, body, soul.

The Different Qualities of These Five Components of the Inner World determine the psychological matrix of a person from which a personality is formed.

Let's consider them all in turn;
1. Spirit is not a soul. The Spirit lays the aspirations of people towards their goals. He gives birth to action. In life, we meet decisive and not decisive people, so we can conclude about their strength of mind, about whether a person has a healthy spirit. The spirit is Russian. “Here is the Russian Spirit, here it smells of Russia!” wrote the great A. S. Pushkin.
2. Mind- it's not the brain. The presence of the mind separates man from the animal. The mind determines the concentration on the result, is responsible for attention and thinking. The mind distinguishes the peculiarities of people's understanding of the world and creates intellect. The mind is also very aggressive and is aimed at destroying everything that interferes with it. For example, even educated people who make great discoveries are not often burdened by the morality of applying the fruits of their discoveries, for example, it is enough to recall the history of the development of weapons of mass destruction, poison gases, new types of microbes to kill people, etc.
3. Will- This is the main psychological core of a person. Will makes it possible to gather strength to overcome difficulties. With the help of the will, people achieve the spiritual goals of the higher Divine, Universal order, neglecting the personal interests and benefits of a low order. Thanks to the will, a person is able to sacrifice himself for the sake of other people. Christianity teaches to use the will to drive sinful habits out of oneself. Strong-willed people coordinate all their actions with personal will, they do not perform any other deeds except those evaluated from the position of will. still exists God's will which should be obeyed. God's will is often hidden from people.
The Lord revealed to us only a particle of His will in the Bible. Here He informs us that He wants us to do what is right and not to do what is wrong. God said that His will is that people do not steal, love their enemies, repent of their sins, love this world, themselves and other people. The Lord has given us His own will to do moral laws for which people are personally responsible.
4. Body. The body can be: liquid, solid, gaseous, in the form of a plasma, a living body, a dead body. The body is an object in space. Man has a living, solid body. The human body is the seat of the spirit, mind, will and soul. The body should be well-groomed, clean, comfortable and healthy.

5. Soul it is the very personality of man, his awareness and mystery. The human soul makes people living beings. The soul attracts the Divine energy of life. The soul is an immortal being that has a personal "I" and was originally created by God. It has a connection with the Supreme and the Universal soul. The soul lives in the human body as long as the body is able to physically work and live.

Partially, the inner world is obscured by unconscious processes, so you need to make a lot of efforts to find out, to fully know your own inner world. The difficulty is that the process of cognition itself is a process of improvement. Once you get to know a part of your inner world, it changes because it becomes more developed.

After a person is aware of his inner world, he begins to make changes to it and manage it. Such an individual is gradually reborn into a superhuman as he begins to do what ordinary people do not do. The uninitiated do not control the personal inner world. Ordinary people are only interested in their inner world. This often completely deprives them of the opportunity to achieve good luck. These are called introverts. They just live in a personal closed world, sometimes with joyful thoughts, and sometimes with a load of problems and catch rare particles of random happiness. Their inner world is controlled by other people, society, politicians, TV, etc. To manage your inner worlds means to have knowledge that will allow you to see your path. To be the master of oneself is to consciously control a fast-moving car that rushes along the highway at tremendous speed. These are especially capable of those whose character is more dominated by the qualities of an extrovert. Such people are characterized by an interest in external events, a desire to learn and teach, they want to pay attention to their achievements, personal qualities, and successes. They are not annoyed by turmoil, noise, they are ready to be the center of attention.
Taking control of their inner world, people get their hands on a tool to change the outer world. Such people choose their own values ​​based on knowledge and logic. They rise above reality, evaluate the circumstances and certainly achieve success. Such people control their behavior, their plans, emotions, feelings. Their inner world increases thousands of times due to understanding and knowledge. This means that their capabilities have expanded thousands of times. However, this does not indicate spiritual development and progress of the soul. The vision of the inner world is not the reason for the development of the soul. It only contributes to it. On the other hand, spiritual developed people may not have a widely developed inner world. They aspire to God, their inner world is pulled up to the sky. There are still sincere people, they can be very sweet, friendly, pleasant, know a lot but without a developed soul. Therefore, the inner world and the soul are not one and far from being synonymous. The mind, the spirit, is also not the inner world. A smart person can be a closed introvert. Even a spiritually developed, strong, strong-willed, patriot can turn out to be a sadist without a soul. The soul is not the spirit.

Development of the inner world

As you already understood, the inner world of a person manifests itself as a result of understanding the external world. It is personal, subjective and may have little to do with reality. This is due to the fact that each person builds his own pattern of thinking in his own way. Each person has experiences and a system of images peculiar only to this person, as well as his own visions of himself and the surrounding reality. The development of the personality and its inner world is carried out as personal activity, which independently and stereotypedly interprets the outside world. Having developed the inner world, a person receives prizes that manifest themselves, materialize in her life in the form of various benefits.

Since we are thinking beings, many strive to become more perfect and want to improve themselves. For this, certain changes must occur in the inner world, and then a person begins to see much more than before. He often wants to achieve goals for which it is necessary to move to the next stage of development. Know yourself and develop your inner and spiritual world.
One of the keys to the effective development of inner peace is - genuine love for your family, friends, relatives and the extension of personal love to other people who are not part of your family. And also the manifestation of a sincere interest in other people as carriers of another Universe and respect for their pattern of perception.
Each person is a microcosm and a likeness of the Universe. To comprehend the patterns of people and change, gently correct them for the better is absolutely necessary and very interesting. Do you want your life to be filled with joy? Then understand yourself and make communication with others open, real, without hypocrisy and imitations. Do not get tired of looking for compromises, explore the mysteries of the soul and often think about the most important things.

Look into yourself, take a closer look, listen to your own inner world... Where did these irritability, impatience and tactlessness, touchiness, fault-finding, aggression come from in you? Are you ready to answer yourself honestly, and if not, then ask yourself about it again and again and ask like this until you get a true result from yourself and a buzz that you weren’t broken on this path and achieved a result. Evaluating yourself is much more difficult than, for example, looking into someone else's inner world. Are you ready to find out all the bitter facts about yourself? Are you ready to take the time to realize more and more clearly how difficult it is sometimes with you for your closest people, your children. Can you trust and respect your friend's personality? Let's not talk about the opponent.

Rules for the development of the inner world of man

At the first stage of the development of the inner world, the development three simple rules:
1. Learn to listen to people
2. Learn to observe yourself and your reactions
3. Learn to control yourself

The inner world is a mirror of the outer world and true reality. Its correct arrangement is very important for solving life problems and manifested, real life. No wonder people say that the beauty of the world comes from a beautiful soul.

Listen to your inner semi-conscious processes, if your inner world is civilized, there is a powerful foundation of respect and politeness, respect and culture in it. Strengthen it, build your own temple of the soul on this foundation and create your beautiful reality. Your soul itself will be preserved in your inner temple thanks to the connection with pure Divine energies and the immortal spark of Universal life. All people who develop their soul receive strength from the Highest, purest Beings. Therefore, it is very important to pay attention to self-consciousness and the search for shortcomings, sins in oneself in order to eliminate them, repent.

About your soul
The soul walked the Earth, ... invisible to people and God,
I was looking for happiness, and in myself ... She dug a little.
She was looking for magic ... As if she was looking for a holiday,
She was all alone, ... And day after day she only died.
She did not understand the delight ... And the passions of the vain world,
And the world was sometimes cruel to her, ... She hid paradise in herself.
Sometimes, invisible to everyone, ... Penetrated into other people's houses,
Where ringing laughter was heard, ... She forgot about grief.
But, accepting someone's pain, ... She herself was torn to pieces,
Asking the Lord: "Please ... Give people at least a little happiness!"
She rang with crystal ... And played with a bright rainbow,
Then, becoming spring rain, ... She dressed the Earth with flowers.
The soul walked the earth ... And, without violating the balance,
Once, having met You, ... I recognized a kindred soul ...

My inner world is closed for restoration:
New life, new people, everything has changed...

Don't give me to others
Do not tempt fate in vain.
Love, having - we do not store,
And having lost it - unfortunate ...
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And you will meet ... when you do not expect ...
And you will find ... not where you are looking for ...
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You crave something - it turns out differently,
But do not poison your soul with expectation:
Lucky for those who do not dream of luck,
And loves the one who never expects love!
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Don't be afraid to lose someone.
You will not lose the one you need in life.
Those who are sent to you for experience are lost.
Those who are sent to you by fate remain.
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Don't be afraid to lose those
Who is not afraid to lose you.
The brighter the bridges burn behind,
The brighter the road ahead.
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If a deep connection breaks,
The pain of tearing is treated with salt.
It's good to part, laughing -
Above yourself, above separation, above pain.
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I forgot you. I do not remember you.
I broke the phone. I forgot the number.
I broke my heart. I killed love.
I do not remember you. I forgot you.
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Someday, deep dark night
You will wake up next to her.
She will whisper in your ear:
"Tell me about your ex."
And again you will remember me and smoke,
And dissolve in smoke, as in a dream,
Then, closing your eyes, you will involuntarily,
You will tell her about me:
"She was the only one.
Probably, she has no equal in the world.
She liked to be silent at times,
Loved the rain, loved the moonlight.
She loved me with all her soul,
I used to be jealous, sometimes...
She was such a special one.
I'll never see someone like this again..."
You will shut up, in the soul it will suddenly become crowded.
Your friend will ask here again:
"Once, she's good, so why aren't you together?"
"She's tired," you say, "forgiving..."
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Someday, when the time comes,
Will you remember this life lesson
You will find my poems, and reading them again,
You will smile like wax, melting!
You want to receive those letters
From a woman who managed to love so much
From the first - a very simple word,
You will remember all the correspondence again!
Big, always seen - at a distance,
And let us not have a date,
Which you didn't need at all
Since your love has long cooled down!
Someday you will be very happy
Considering my verse - beautiful, from awards,
Pages from the Internet will emerge from memory,
Where it was, for the first time this photo!
That's how it always is, that's how it happens in life,
What was close - memory forgets!
And that simply can not be returned,
You're in the mind - pave the way again!
Someday, when the heart is empty,
And in my heart, incredibly sad,
You will read - all my dreams,
All one hundred, in a row and you will be happy!
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Oh, I believed in love...
I wrote poetry in the evenings.
And, the blood sank in the heart,
When I met you online.
But it's all gone, it's all behind
I won't see you again!
You got out of my way...
Went to spit in another soul.
Now it's all over,
I just hate you!
I will meet happiness on the way
I won’t spit in my soul, I won’t offend ...
How did you do it to me
And I loved with all my heart...
And you… you just enjoyed yourself.
You just laughed at me.
What a pity that you, such a scoundrel,
Looked like a man to me!
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I will not humble myself before you;
Neither your hello nor your reproach
Have no control over my soul.
Know: we are strangers from now on.
You forgot... your freedom
I will not give up for delusion.
And so she sacrificed years ...
Your smile and eyes...
Proud?! I'm sorry... love someone else
And I love another.
From now on I will enjoy!
I'll drown change in passion...
I will laugh with everyone
I don't want to cry with anyone.
I'll start to deceive shamelessly
To fall in love with you...
Not knowing the insidious betrayal,
I gave my soul to you.
You did not know the price of such a soul ...
I didn't know... And... I didn't know you!...
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I slammed the door to my dream
And the key from the bridge, I threw it into the water.
I'm tired of believing in emptiness
And go nowhere without knowing the ford.
All thoughts ... I put in a chest ...
With a sad note - "what will not happen" ...
She closed it tightly with a hook.
Decided to live in reality, like people.
Let the heart cry and the soul scream...
I will not call and beg you,
Love will die... and the heart will be silent.
There is no hope, and I will stop waiting.
Someday... in silent silence...
You will remember me when you look at the stars.
Would you like to call... come to me...
Someday... but it will be too late...
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I was treated by a good doctor - time.
May you grow wings behind my back,
I still couldn't fly with them.
And tearing out feathers with a loud cry,
I tried to forget you and let you go
I couldn't believe that it could be otherwise
That life did not end with your departure.
I don't hurt you anymore, baby
Turned over the last page.
And wings slowly grow
To fly again like a bird.
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I loved him in every way
Good, evil, useless.
I loved him as a stranger
Both cheerful and very sad.
I have always loved him
Whatever happens in life
For the opportunity to look into the eyes
And for his strange thoughts.
I loved him like this
How others can't see it.
I loved him mine
Hoping nothing will come of it.
I loved him for
He penetrated right into my soul.
I loved him... Gone.
Why else is it needed?
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I will be the only Woman.
But you won't understand it right away.
Married with fright and pride,
You will disown, as from leprosy.
I'll be the only one true
The only close... to the point of pain.
But you, respecting the measure,
Consider this proximity bondage.
I will be the only truth.
I will be the only friend.
But you will brush it off: "Don't ...
We can live without each other."
I will be the only woman
The one you love
I will be the only woman
The one with which ... you will not ...
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Remember this just in case
It's better to write somewhere:
When you stop loving me, don't torture me!
Kill once - tell me!
And I won't beg for mercy
Although the words will hurt like a whip.
When you stop loving me, don't!
Just don't feel sorry for me!
When yours cools down to mine
Don't hide your confused face.
Let resentment take out my soul,
But let's be completely honest!
Remember this just in case:
Do not argue with yourself, do not argue with fate.
When you stop loving, go, do not torment!
And I don't care for you...
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But I really loved you...
So devotedly and unconditionally waiting.
I didn’t want to, but I still cooled down,
Like a cup of coffee by an open window.
Killed all principles and crippled all dreams?
Smashed the remnants of faith in fairy tales and love.
Your aspirations are painfully clear and simple...
Car. Night. And again, and again... and again...
And so I wanted tenderness, care, understanding.
I so wanted to be with you!
But you only killed everything with a new parting,
And washed out feelings from the heart, like water.
But once I really loved ...
So faithfully and unconditionally waiting ...
Tired. Has matured. Let go...
Thank you for being...
Thank God that I still left! ...
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I left... I won't disturb your peace...
And farewell - I will not burden ...
Only you became poorer - for the Soul ...
Affectionate... gentle.... my...
Devotee - in grief ... and bad weather ...
And always... hurrying to the call...
The one that humiliated... and tore apart...
He killed with fire... soulless words...
He harassed .... ruthless silence ...
After ... before communication ... condescending ...
And oily-idle speeches ...
Measured drove ... without pity into the precipice ...
Everything is on its own arshin - we measure in life ...
On the scale - finds and losses ...
I am yours... "little loss"...
You are my crazy February mirage...
But now that all the dots are above the "i"...
In places - doubts ... truth ... lies ......
I left ... melting in these lines ...
And it’s not a pity ... That you won’t read them ...
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You know I've already cried
I cried, wept, I fell in love...
And what left a trace in the soul,
It's so strange... it still didn't kill me.
In time all the dark will go away
I'll never remember it again
Fate, having started a strange turn,
Suddenly it will endure again to heat and light.
And again my happiness will fill the house,
And I will gain more by losing...
Love will not burn with a crazy fire,
And it will smolder, warming my soul ...
Now you're just my past
You are still somewhere in the clouds...
Believe that I cried mine
And you... You're just starting to cry.
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You're probably thinking right now
That I remember you often.
Yes, you're right, and, you know, every time
Piece by piece, I tear out the pain.
Bit by bit, bit by bit from the soul
I sweep away all sorrows.
And for every moment of fate
I kill the memory of you.
One word every day
Of all your phrases, I forget.
Every glance of yours seems to be in the void,
Falling asleep, I erase in my heart.
Our autumn one leaf at a time
I'm burning in the streets of the city.
One fallen tear
Every hour I pour from the sky.
You're probably thinking right now...
Just not about that ... had been ill.
And today my hour has come -
I just sobered up from you.
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Two loneliness in the depths of the Internet
They wrote about nothing and nowhere ...
They just wrote without asking for a reply.
It was like trains were leaving.
When there is a piercing wound on the heart
And the pain of lost love...
Would it happen sooner or later
Their virtual paths crossed.
Although the hearts of both are stripped,
And the internet won't save you...
We were looking for answers in our verses
Something that no one can give us back.
I'm sad because you're a stranger
I'm sad because I'm a stranger...
At least go to virtual with me
I'm not suggesting anything to you.
The network turned off and everything suddenly disappeared,
And I'm back in my memories...
Well, sorry, my virtual friend,
For all the poems... and all my suffering.
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Man to man is evil
Whatever it was, but still
I've always been lucky with people
What did you do wrong with him, God?
He multiplied me by zero
It makes it even more expensive.
Man to man - pain
I learned that too.
I stand on the seven winds
Hiding the past deep into the pocket.
Man to man - fear
Fear of loss and fear of deceit.
I don't see the world at my feet
I love him and it seems
Man to man is God.
How do you deal with it, God?
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You don't seem to understand what the problem is...
Acting like everything's okay...
And I'm ready to run without looking back ...
Today, and I fear forever...
You didn't even notice how you broke ...
My soul, stepping into it with my feet ...
Empty pain circulates...
Keep looking for what you were looking for...
You are deaf and mean to all my prayers...
I speak as if to myself...
YOU are addicted to a fun game -
Break me without words and without a fight...
Broke already! What more do you want?...
And trampled, and spat, and laugh...
But you know what?... One day YOU will wake up...
And maybe you will understand that YOU are forgiven ...
Look up into the sky, it's going to rain...
A teardrop on your palm is inaudible...
Everything is as it is. And it turned out the way it did...
Do not change You: I was born like this ...
At night you will only remember ...
How I breathed in unison with you...
Do you want to return everything, starting over ...
But you won't kiss me...
And the pain will pierce like a knife ...
Now your breast, then your memory is infinite ...
Was I? Alas, it's too fast...
I took your lies for the truth ...
I'm broken by You... But Didn't help...
Get up, warm me from the cold...
I see the sky in the reflection of a puddle...
YOU Promised... But You Couldn't Keep...
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My soul was ripped open
With just one word,
Now the bloodless is getting cold,
Dreaming of a new miracle.
And there is no miracle at all -
The leaf lies under the feet,
"Yesterday ..." burns out in the fireplace,
Weave into a knot of the road.
Do not think, the soul does not grumble -
She just has nowhere to go
But it would be so much easier
If you ripped your heart.
I lace my soul tighter -
To not be wide open.
And it will become much easier
Come give the go-ahead!

Already was.
When I had a period of touch-color synesthesia, I saw flashes of color very vividly. All possible colors except white and black. From which I concluded that these are special colors and not even quite colors. White is all colors at once, and black is generally something incomprehensible. Absence? Space?

About the magic of black - about its action, associations and chains of connections with other phenomena - under the cut.

? Clothes are impenetrable and whole.

In clothes, black color gives a feeling of wholeness, impenetrability - it is visibility and closeness at the same time. It is clear that, thanks to this, the main color of business and formal wear is black. It is in this environment that security is needed along with brightness.

Periods of total black come when the inner self-image requires restoration of integrity or is especially vulnerable. Black gives such boundaries.

If white clothes say "I am the whole world", then black clothes emphasize - "I am only me."

? Magic is protection.

The main and most powerful effect of black in magic is protection. The nature of black gives impenetrability and boundaries not only in the image, but also in reality.

?Cosmology: the realm of death.

Black as the absence of light gives it a logical role as the color of the land of the dead, a symbol of death in general. It is interesting that death itself, especially in the East, is more often seen as white (also non-existence). But it is precisely the possessions, the realm of death and the dead - traditionally black: life does not penetrate there, and therefore light.

Rituals of interaction with the dead are thus also often associated with the attributes of black.

? Culture is a departure from the world.

Since black is the color of another world, then the departure from this world is also black. Therefore, it is the traditional color of hermitism, monasticism, magicians.

?Superstition - black magic and witches.

In the profane perception there was a chain: black - death - evil. As death is not an evil process by nature, so the negative energy is not inherent in the black energy, but the established associations left their mark. "Black magic" is witchcraft aimed at causing harm, or - associated with the dead, or - any magic in general for those who are afraid of it. Interestingly, Max Fry refers to black magic as magic that manipulates material world without ethical connotations. Remembering the opposition of yin-yang (black = matter and white = spirit), this is a much more logical terminology than is accepted in our world.

It is clear that such characters as "witch" and "sorcerer" are also "painted" in black.

? Symbols - raven.

A bright symbol of black is a raven: a bird that symbolically bears the seal of mystery, death, magic, fear, wisdom - and is really black.

? Mysticism is material emptiness.

In contrast to the spiritual emptiness - the same duality of "yin and yang".

Misunderstanding of the principles and meaning of Yin energy in the Super-Yang era (I'm talking about the Kali Yuga again) is brilliantly seen in the phrase "black streak". It means an unfortunate time when "everything is bad" and "nothing works out." In fact, this is precisely the “black”, and not the “negative” band. This is a yin streak: a time that is really completely unsuitable for “worldly” yang things like work, achieving goals, successful and clear communication with the world - and surprisingly necessary for communicating with oneself, with “the other world”, traveling beyond the limits of understandable and convenient, perception of silence and non-action. Something that we, as a rule, do not know how and are afraid of. What we complain with indignation as a “black stripe”.